Have you ever seen a animal or human dying in front of you? Have you ever felt the last breath or heartbeat? Do you know how it feel to be totally helpless?
Today one of the horses I'm responsible for, died. His name was 'Shadow' (He was able to walk without making a sound with his hooves) and he was a beautiful and young stallion, full of joy and power.
During the castration he stopped breathing and four doctors tried to rescue him and after 20 minutes his heart stopped beating ... I'll never forget this moment when the doctor said, that he'll never wake up again.
But there are also some happy moments: One of our mares will born a foal next spring. And Shadow will be the father of this foal ... so maybe it's allowed to be said that he didn't die completely.

That's him: [link]
Shadow, 2 years old Friesian-Tinker-Horse-Hybrid
Rest in peace little stallion, you'll never be completely forgotten!

Next week I'll visit Wales for five weeks! I'm totally excited and can't wait to go onto the ferry and see the white rocks of Dover on horizon
Last year I've been in the south of England, mostly Dartmoor, Exmoor and Cornwall and it was absolutely awesome! After these five weeks I fell in love with UK

But this time my aprents are afraid of the "swine flu" and didn't want to go to Wales ... I don't know why they are thta afraid of it but hopefully we'll spend our summer vacation in Wales ... where exactly we will be? I don't know, but in all probability in Snowdonia and Brecon Beacons.

Wales is always one of the places where I wanted to be, because of the breathtaking landscape having some parallels to Norway which is my greatest love

I hope you all have a great summer and a beautiful time!

UPDATE:
At the beginning we visited Oxford again and I really like it! All the beautiful colleges and so on look awesome. Unfortunately the sun couldn't be seen ... It was a really wet start of our trip.

Until now we have bee in the national park Brecon Beacons where I joined a day ride and this was the best things I've ever done in my total life! During 6 hours I've seen a breathtaking landscape. The best thing was the fact, that there weren't any cars oder fences ... just endless freedom. If yiu have the chance to do a day ride there, too: DO IT! Beginners are also able to join because it isn't that hard and the horses/ponys are really kind ones, not being hard to ride or totally 'strong-minded'.
For some information, have a look at this website: [link]
There are also some other stabels in the national park. Prices for a day ride mostly are between 50-60 pounds.
We also waled at the Waterfall-Trail, including beautiful places with small waterfalls. If you want to do a easy hike for one or twoe hours, then this would be the right thing to do.
There is also a coal-mines, showing how the life of the workers had been and you're alowed to have a look into the mines. A guide (mostly relatives of former workers) shows and tells you a lot of interesting things. At your trip you will need to war a helmet and a belt with a 5kg-lamp. After that there are some exhibitions and galleries giving more interesting details. And I have to mention: I doesn't cost a pence and is awesome if you don't know what to do on a rainy day!

Tmorrow we'll go to a camp site in Snowdonia, North-Wales.

I don't know when I'll be able to upload some art again ... I'm still working on some things, but never have the ambition to put enough details into them. I think, I'll need a litte break.

If our new campsite in Snowdonia has free Wi-Fi, I'll upload this journal.

Hi,

a few years ago I got a panpipe (just a small one to practise) and I was able to play some simple songs and I really enjoyed it. But then, when school wanted all my attention, I didn't have much time to play panpipe and now I'm not longer able to create some well sounding notes.
But now I'll have enough time to improve my skills and I want to buy a real panpipe ... you know, one of the big ones which can be seen at some great classical concerts.
The biggest problem is, that there aren't any people in my hometown educating panpipe and so I want to ask you, if you know if it is possible to learn playing panpipe on his own.
Does anybody know something about that?
Will be awesome, if there are some people being able to tell me something about this topic

Yes, I had some time to draw and it was great to see, that I was able to improve my drawingskills --> I am on the way of photorealism! I can't tell you, how great my feelings are at the moment and I can't wait to finish all the drawings I started some time ago.
But: My computer want to work at the moment. I know what is the problem and I tried to fix that, but I doesn't work and I have to wait 'til I'm able to buy a new one. Honestly I found some good ones x) (and no, it isn't Apple ... I HATE Apple-Notebooks, iPods and so on)

And school is the horrible thing existing at the moment -.- Within two days I have to prepare are whole presentation for my verbal spanish exam about the aztecs and their gods and victims. I really love to talk about something I'm interesting in, but I'm a person who need some time for preparation ... and this note is going to be very important for me.

Hi, there!

At the moment I spend my holidays in the south of France and I have enough time to draw! I can't believe it
I'll do some personlad work ... no comission because there aren't any - You'll see some dragons, a knight and one of my beloved characters ;D

Please don't be angry if I don't answer all your comments directly!

Greets from sunny France