In October I started to study Medieval Studies, but I hate it -.- Yes, I love the medieval times since I've been a little girl and I still do, so I thought it might be interesting to study it at university. Honestly I have to say that it's quite boring ... only reading books, analysing old documents of monks and kings.
We learn nothing, absolutely nothing, about important moments in history or people who influenced those times. So, my motivation got lost after a few weeks and I'm absolutely sure to break up with it.

Instead I tried (and try) to get accepted at some art schools, offering all different arts of design courses and so on, but what some techers told me there: "Unfortunately I don't see any talent and honestly we don't understand why you want to study industrial design, game design oder communications design. Well, and because of your hobbys we have to tell you, it's better to find new ones and things your interested in. Archery, horseback riding, and being a fan of fantasy literature, ancient myhologies or history is wasted time. Find something else ... more usefull."

Yeah, that's what they told me -.-  So, I don't know what to do. My life sucks right now ... everything I do seems to be the wrong way and I don't have any motivation oder strength to go on.

Oh, and I destroyed everything I created druing the last two or three years (Over 137 drawings and four sketchbooks) and in the future there won't be any dragons, because they ruined my life by having too much control about my interests and art skills.

That's all ... now I have to find some inspiration and motivation :/